St. Valentines Day Post

~My Lonely Heart Calls~

Once again Autumn falls and betrays the hearts of the children

who stood playing in the streets.

The cold, unforgiving wind blows hard against their face,

like a knife piercing the body a million times.

All that need be done is think of you,

gray skies turn blue.

The sun beats down hard on my world.

Lost in time,

remembering hazy days filled with laughter.

Cries of joy when I was little,

the dream will never cripple.

A change of friends,

what was months now feels like minutes..

Lonely I walk without your love to guide me

and give me the strength to carry on,

for the miles are too far and between in this unchanging scene.

I go my way and you go yours.

We’ll continue to hide our love,

tucked away under a blanket, hidden from the world;

hidden away from each other.

Maybe I’m too late,

but this feeling won’t subside.

I can’t get you out of my mind,

your love is still deep inside.

I long to touch you again, but you’re not there.

I long to see the wind blowing you beautiful soft brown hair.

To run through the fields of love.

To have the strength of an Eagle,

and fly with the grace and beauty of a Dove.

My heart calls out for you, but you’re not there.

Another day is beginning,

the sun rises slowly in the East to settle in the West;

in my mind you won’t rest.

Another season slowly dies,

the tears freeze beneath my eyes;

for your love is still deep inside.

Alone without you.

Isolated in a world without boundaries,

my heart calls out for you,

this feeling won’t subside;

maybe I’m too late.

Another winter night is falling,

the stars shine bright in the sky.

Still I wonder where you are,

destiny is calling,

but maybe we are too far.

JvLs 12/95


Dream Sequence Continued

~The Poets Dream~

Soon winter will be upon us.

One can feel the cool Canadian breeze in the air today,

For in a few days the leaves will turn brown

and fall to the ground.

Autumn and spring become the stepping stones for the unseen.

A time to be born, a time to die,

Many sit around the fire asking why.

Guitar player,

Ancient warrior of wisdom,

Play your soft chords that lead the chosen

To discover and rediscover reason.

Some of us commit treason,

Others ride the tide from season to season –

We will return again.

Captured over the bridge of circumstance,

Will I ever be free again?

Without will, little knowledge, not a choice;

Love me said the calm, whispering voice.

My body is being swallowed by the sun.

I run and I run

Hoping to catch up with the fun,

But the deed is done,

The line is cast

As I am hooked by all my past.

With the clouds faces tucked away in the corners of my mind,

The sun beams through the empty spaces like a flashlight

Violently searches the night,

My body explodes into the heart of the sun.

Floating through the clouds

The memories come rushing back to meet me now.

Of you and me and how happy we used to be.

Rising up to the space between the heavens,

I had a dream.

I had a dream of a place where people walk safely down the street,

Where everyone has enough to eat,

Where no one ever misses a beat.

A place where the waves always reach the shore

and no one kills the children anymore.

I desperately try to hold onto the dream,

Hold on to the dream…

JvLs 01/96

Ah, those were the days…

~The Wanderer~

No games can be put past this shattered brain,

For I seek no pain.

He seems to be very insane.

His brain leaks as he sits there and peaks.

Drops of frosty colored rain fall upon the mountain tops,

As his mind takes a twist and flop.

If thou shall fall to his knees,

If thou shall put his dignity forth to the ground.

Bees softly float through the breeze.

A chill climbs his spine,

As he looks back to the little town where he

Left the pieces of a past life.

with a turn of his head he sees the road

Whereon lies tomorrow.

JvLs 12/83

Dream Sequence

~I Saw My First Love In A Dream~

I saw my first love late last night in a dream,

Our dark silhouettes danced beneath the light of the

Forgiven moon.

In my dreams I see her often,

Laughing or standing at a distance with a fulfilling smile –

Beautiful red hair blowing in the wind.

For in my dreams she will stay

And in my heart she will always be mine.

Red is the sky of a winters dawn,

The sign of a new beginning of conscious reality.

Sometimes there is nothing more to react on

Than a dream,

A silent, hard driven machine.

White is the sandy beach

Where we will lie and soak up the summers sun.

Fierce are the waters waves.

Hard and uncertain, we will ride them to the end

And look back over the ocean.

A placid image that will last forever;

For I saw my only true love late last night in a dream.


Someone done done me wrong…

~My Cell Door~

I sit quietly, alone, behind my cell door,

The world outside rapidly flowing by.

I am trapped inside my four walls,

No one outside can hear my calls.

Am I trapped inside this silent world forever?

The pilot light to the future is growing dim,

Innocence fills its way to the brim.

For I have not committed a crime;

Still I do the time.

This cruel world, which you call kind, has done me wrong.

Why am I to pay for the crime?

Will I sit behind this cell door for eternity?

Sympathy is running low,

For in due time I will live no longer

And die behind my cell door.

JvLs 07/84

For I Will Be

~For I Will Be~

I’m Crying at you mindless people,

For you’ve shattered my soul,

Torn me apart from leg to arm,

Left me down, confused and without answers,

Only prayers.

I’m laughing at you mindless people,

For you’ve shown me your stupidity.

Left me without trust and faith.

Dropped me in a circle, at to which only I contain and remain.

I’m left in mindful wonders, oh mindless people;

For you’ve shown me your ignorance.

Leave me to live my own life,

I am not your silver duplicate!

My destiny is not yours to see.

For I will be the tallest mountain that you’ll ever see,

The strongest power that you could never be,

For I will be me!

JvLs 04/84

**Authors Note: If that takes you back to your youth, remembering a time when you had an argument with your parents over something, maybe not letting you go to a party, or not letting you hanging out with certain friends – good. Because that’s what is was about. I was mad at my parents over something I don’t remember now. I was expressing my dominance, my strength. Letting them and the world know that I am going to be me. And I’m happy to say, I am. And if you’re a kid struggling to find your independence, trying to find yourself, I promise, you will. ┬áKeep you head up. Do the right things and NEVER stop chasing YOUR dreams!

A Time

~A Time~

A time to be alone.

A time to think,

To be free.

A time to watch the sun slowly rise,

To sit within its warmth.

A time to feel joy for this new day.

A time to wallow in the sun’s rays,

To remember and forget all past days.

A time to feel the Earth bennieth your feet,

Far away from any cities grime.

A time to feel the wind blow

And let that same wind carry you soul far away

From any suburban street.

A time to not know of a single crime.

To live on the clock of the Lord,

Note by note, chord by chord;

For I will be yours if you will be mine.

A time to be alone.

A time to think,

To be free.

A time to watch the sun slowly set.

To grab the hand of this day so nearly gone

And try to pull it back.

A time to sit amongst the moon and stars,

To think about life, love, the afterlife

And all that lies in between.

With eyes fixed on the night sky like a movie screen,

It is a time to quietly await the next scene;

Ah, life is but a dream.

Clip after clip, we search the seas for our distant ship.

A time to listen to the sweet sounds of Mother Natures harmony,

To hear the birds sing amongst the trees of summer.

To feel the thunder of the waterfall

And to be a part of the rushing water heading down stream.

A time for freedom.

A time to pinpoint what myself and this beautiful world really mean.

To discover how far is too far,

To see how deep is too deep,

To build a ladder to the sky and find out how high is too high.

A silent time to just sit and figure it all out.

A time… to rediscover me.

JvLs 04/91